Saturday, January 5, 2013

Suara ku berharap ...

Selamat tengahari kepada semua pembaca setia . Alhamdulillah hari ini semua sihat walafiat dan Lisz masih mampu menaip untuk entry hari ini . Waktu rehat nehh , curi-curi masa sikit . Sabtukan , Hari enam :)

Okay Lisz nak ucapkan Selamat Ulang Tahun yang ke-23 kepada seseorang . Hah ! Nehh orangnya :


His name Shohibul Fadhil bin Mahmudin . Siapa dia ? Hihihi . Dia ini adalah teman saya ketika dahulu . Cinta monyet lahh katakan . Bermula dari darjah 5 sehingga tingkatan 5 . Then kitaorang broke up . Tiada rezeki nak kawan lama kan . * Malu sekejap sebab teringat cerita waktu kecik-kecik dah bercinta . Apa nak jadi lahh kan . Dia adalah seorang pasangan dan kawan yang baik taw . Mata sepet woo ! Chinese look akan tetapi kulitnya yang tak berapa na putih lahh kan . Hihi . The whole family dia putih-putih lahh .

By the way kawan , Happy Birthday ! Semoga dipanjangkan umur , dimurahkan rezeki , dan berjaya dengan cemerlangnya sama ada didunia mahupon akhirat . Orang tua , nanti nak khawin wajib jemput aku taw ! Happy good lucky my friend !

Hm . Hari ini Lisz ada tersenyum sikit tadi sebab mesej masuk '' Kau tahu ta aku SAYANG gila kt kau !''. Daripada sweetheart Lisz tuh . How many days already kitaorang dah bertegur sapa . No contact . Lisz memang sifatnya yang egois terlampau sangat even dah buat salah ! Keras kepala yang melampau sebab tuh susah nak dengar cakap orang dan sentiasa rasa diri tuh betul dalam sesuatu hubungan ! Huhhh ! Tak boleh ubah lahh ! Btw , thank you so much for the message sweetheart . Really appreciate it :)

Suara ku berharap agar NLEY back again . Lots and lots of hope . Tak lupa pada Adek Eyqa , Zulfakar , Syukor si keding , Fitri Hedzer dan yang lain-lain juga ! Thanks kawan ! Jumpa lagi di next entry . Wassalam . Have a nice day today :)


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Masih ada harapan ? No more , MAYBE .


Lisz here was wishing all of you A very Happy New Year 2013 and goodbye for 2012 !

Tahun baru yang tiada makna mungkin bagi Lisz . Diraikan dengan penuh perasaan sedih , menangis dan penuh dengan kekecewaan . Hah ! Pada yang suka aku sedih tuh , kau happy gilaa kan ? Tahniah sebab berjaya buat aku benar-benar down jatuh habes . Big clap kan ?

I am so mad at myself . I feel like I hate myself instead of hating you and I don't know if that's possible . Because I convinced myself I was over you and now I know it was all pretend . I pretended that I didn't look at you when when you didn't notice I was . I pretended not to light up when you entered a room . I pretended not to be upset when we got in a fight . I pretended I didn't look forward to seeing you everyday .  I pretended that I wasn't hurt when you broke my heart . I pretended I didn't miss you when you didn't come around . Now all these lies have showed me is that I miss you so much more than I had realized .

I know everything happens for a reason , but the reason hurts . Now it's in pieces and you're no longer around . It hurts when her walk into your life and make you happy and then you walk out and leave me hurting . Truth ...

What I am now , is what you made me , a lonely soul who is incomplete and lost without you . My heart is broken , my eyes are soakin , it's tearing me apart with words unspoken .

No one has ever understood me like the way you did . No one has ever treated me so kind and sweet like the way you did . No one has ever put in an effort to get to know me like the way you did . But no one has ever broken my heart the way you did .

Even though you never loved me like before , I always kept smiling because I didn't want people to blame you as a reason behind my tears . Too sad to miss you , too bad to lose you , to hard to forget you .

So , this is it ? No more I love you , hugs , kisses , or cuddling ? Its time for us to say goodbye ? For good ? Are you happy right ? Not even the least bit sad ? Heartbroken ? Hurt ? Did you cry the way I did every night of the day ? Stay up wondering if this is what you really wanted ? Hating yourself for letting each other go ? I guess ill never truly know . When you wake up and read this , if there's no slightest bit of hope for us , don't bother texting back or even thinking about me . Erase my number , erase the memories , erase every little thing we used to be . You have no reason to hold on , if there's no more you and me .

Last : Thank you very much my sweetheart Mushy . You done very well :( NLEY stories will never end here .

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2013 | EMPTY OF HEART FEELING .
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